I shouldn't have gone!

I think I shouldn't have attended my friend's wedding. I don't know why, but I am feeling the suffocation increase day by day. May be not seeing her, not meeting her would have been better. I knew she would be there at the wedding, particularly that was one of the reasons I was so excited about going. Had thought so many things in my mind. Was expecting at least some talk with her. But nothing happened. Any way, that's not the point now. 

I keep thinking about her day and night, weeks and months. When I am on phone, when I am not on phone. When I am watching a movie, when I am not watching a movie. When I am reading a book, when I am not reading a book. Will she ever realize? Does she even know? Can I still make it? Should I even try? Or am I just bracing for this impact lifelong? To bear this forever? 

We would have been such a great pair. But I am not one of those lucky ones. 

I feel I have seen enough. Had enough experiences. There's nothing more to look forward to. I will have no regrets if I go soon. In fact, it would be great to go. It would be peace. At least there won't be anything after that, peace or whatever. Once gone, gone. But going seems welcoming. Liberating.

4/09/2023 03:26:00 pm Share:

Questions for Interview - System Admin/Cloud Ops/Backend systems/Infrastructure

What are repeated issues you have faced and tried to implement a solution to avoid it, basically something significant you implemented that benefited team/app/org?

Best practices for web server, app server, database? Any 5 for each?

Explain TLS vs SSL.

What are cipher suites?

Difference between a domain and zone?

What is LDAP and AD?

How do you use version control?

Can you do ripple restart in Prod?

What is Pod in Kubernetes?

Most commonly used commands in day-to-day work, *Nix and Windows?

What is virtual host?

OOPs concepts?

Web services you have used and difference among them, like Rest, Soap, others?

Different SDLC processes, agile, waterfall, difference, other types?

How a SSL handshake happens?

Commands used in terms of certificate management, import, etc.?

What is hot deployment? Is it okay to do hot deployments in Prod?

What is clustered index and non-clustered index in SQL?

What are the different day to day tasks that you do in SQL?

What are the monitoring tools you have used so far?

Is AD used for authentication or authorization? What is the difference between the two?

What is AD and what is DC. What is the difference between the two?

What is registry? What can we do with it?

What is group policy?

What is cross site scripting (XSS) and how is it different from SQL injection?

Write the code to get the count of each process in PowerShell.

If you are connected to Wi-Fi and change to LAN cable on the same network, will your IP change?

What is DNS? What is DHCP? How are IPs assigned in a network?

What is execution policy in PowerShell? What are the different types of them?

How to run a script when execution policy is set to restricted?

What is blue green deployment?

Do you have any migration experience from on-prem to Azure? What would be the steps to do it?

How do you create virtual host server?

What is kernel?

What is difference between Apache http server and Apache tomcat?

How to install software/app from repository and from package file?

How to create multiple subdomains in a single web server?

What is ITIL? What is its significance and requirement?

What is the significance of different types of brackets in PowerShell?

How does PowerShell commands or scripts work?

How to create user in AD using PowerShell with data from a CSV file?

How would you fetch the OS details of remote server using PowerShell?

How would you map a drive on a remote system using PowerShell?

What is DNS? What is internal and public DNS?

What are different types of records in DNS? What is an SRV record? Is Alias and CName record same?

How would you list all the users or resources in Azure or GCP in the whole organization?

If 16 (x.x.x.x/28) addresses are available on a network, how many more subnets can be created out of it?

What is a managed instance?

How do you force the system to look for IP first on the DNS server then on the system host file?

What are the different troubleshooting approaches or causes of a remote linux not connecting even when it is online and pinging? What could be cause of error "Connection refused"?

What are the challenges you faced while setting up alerts?

What are the different components of an RCA document?

Can you vertically scale a kubernetes cluster or node?

If we do not use Kubernetes and only have docker for running containers, and if a container stops/crashes for some reason, will it start running up again or would you have to start it up manually? What would happen in case of a pod running? What would happen in case of a Kubernetes deployment when the replica is just 1?

How to grant access to Linux server to a friend using private key and how does SSH work?

What is difference between shared vpc and vpc peering?

What are the different types of network load balancers? What does each do?

Major difference between GCP and Azure?

What are the different method we can ensure out app is always running in a VM on GCP?

What is firewall? How to block port 22 on 3 VMs that might not be in same subnet?

How to increase security of your cloud infrastructure?

How to harden images/VMs?

Tell us about a situation where you got a feedback and how you reflected on it. Any negative feedback you got and what you did with it.

4/04/2023 08:29:00 pm Share:

Have I lost you?

Of late, seeing your posts, although I am certain, there was never a chance, I wasn't ever there, but still the question comes, have I lost you? Haha, well I never had you in the first place. Maybe this question is just the rhetorical synthesis of my mind telling me, if I ever had a chance, it's no more there. It's gone. I should accept it now. But when will I be able to accept it. Probably never. Probably not in this lifetime. I hope I do. 

It's just painful. Why is it so hard. Why are the systems like this. Thousands of years of evolution, and still these chemicals make it so damn difficult. There's no reason to set up that high level of mechanism when there's no hope of getting the person one desires. 

Desire seems such a filthy word here. Longing. Yes, that makes more sense than the former. 

There was a point when I used to listen to love songs, because I enjoyed them as well as I believed in the lyrics. Now I’ve reached a point where I can’t get myself to believe that any of it is real. These days no matter how romantic the song or lyrics are, everything feels fake.

These oceans of sorrow, these pools of despair and dejection, this disdain, agony and soreness, would they ever subside. Why do I always think about her. When will it end. Nobody talks about how difficult and heartbreaking distancing from someone you love is, for your own peace and mental health. 

Do I love this person? Yes. 

Do I think about them all the time? Yes. 

Will I ever talk to them again? Hopefully No.

4/03/2023 05:18:00 pm Share: