It's been almost 5 years now. Few months left, yet the longing is same. As if it was just yesterday. Now it feels there's no purpose. No purpose of life. And the only purpose was to live with her, talk with her, hold her hands, be friends with her. In retrospect, I am flabbergasted to see where did my purpose change in my thoughts, in my mind. When did it become all about her? I had never thought like this before. Since last couple of months...maybe a year, I have started feeling the lose of purpose in life. Since I fail to be with her, I feel there's nothing more to do in life. Nothing more to achieve. I have started asking myself since I couldn't be with her, what's the purpose left? What's the point further. Soon she will become unthinkable. Maybe then I will get some sense, or maybe go completely insane.
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