It's been two years now. Considering my maturity in age, I should have stopped feeling the pain by now. With an adult brain and body, theoretically it should take me less time to get over her. But I think my assumption is wrong. This time too it might take as long as it took the last time.
But I am tired. I am tired of being always nice to people, always on the edge to not let people get unhappy in anyway due to me. Hide everything from them so that they don't feel guilt. Iam tired of this ideal of mine. But I am still not able to change it. Anyway it's not as if telling her now will reduce this suffering. No, of course not. Then why bother someone from their happy life.
It will get better. I still want to believe that. Wish if the hurt would have reduced a little over this time.
2/12/2020 03:12:00 am
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